Why Me?
July 20, 2011
Hey yawl. I wanted to write my 1st official blog and just pour out my inner-most feelings (not all of them lol) about events, issues, daily inspirations, the what’s, when’s and where’s and just overall thoughts and essence of what makes me, ME: Ashley Tamar Davis aka Tamar…
Someone asked me one-day do I ever get mad? Do I ever cry? Have I ever said a curse word? Do I regret? Have I ever thought of giving up? On and on and on I constantly get asked about normal life’s issues and I found that sometimes people think I am immune to life and the perils thereof…
And then there are questions like “How do I get into acting?” or “Can you teach me how to sing?” or “How do you know when you have talent?” Or “What’s the difference between having talent and having a gift?” or “What is success?” or “Is there a difference between FAME, SUCCESS, or having a CAREER?”
So starting in this first blog, I will begin to share as much as I know based on my life’s experiences thus far. I do not want to give opinions or assessments, just my honest-to-God truths and the evidence thereof…
The reality is I do get mad. I do cry. I have said a curse word a time or two. NO I have no regrets and NO I have never thought of giving up. I am neither Republican nor Democrat. I like the color Pink and I cannot stand snakes. I love to rides horses and YES I have failed, a many, many times. And not the obvious fail. But the internal-kinda-fail when you know you should do one thing and you choose to do something else because of the presence of FEAR (but that’s another blog).
But there are some common threads between most of us that I would like to initially discuss: 1. We are creations of God and desire perfection at all times, but will never be perfect and 2. There have been times where we ask ourselves “Why Me?”
The answer: Why not you? Why can you not get rid of the addiction? Why can’t you say ‘no?’ Why can’t you be blessed? Why can’t you give? Why can’t you receive? Why can you not be loved? Why can’t you love?
I found that my perception on where I am today is not based on external ideals but solely based on how God sees me. Whether you believe in God the Father, Allah (as some call HIM), Jehovah, or the sciences, we all know we have a beginning and will have an end. I do believe that God created us: you, me, us, humans as so intricate as we are, with a mind, body, and spirit.
And I do believe that God sees everything and that HE understands our makeup and existence.
I, you and me, have and constantly experiences God’s love through people, events…
I, you and me, have and constantly will experience HIS grace, more so when we didn’t or don’t deserve it.
I don’t intend to convince, convict, or force any1 to believe in my ideals nor should you. However, in my upcoming blogs, I will share the most personal understandings in my life that have transformed myself and others at the simple introduction to LOVE and I desire to answer as many questions as I possibly can.
Enjoy and share with me!
With Love,
Tamar
